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Ke hadapan diriku
Di hari kemudian
Apa khabar dirimu?
Tertanya ku bagaimana

Apakah kau berduka
Hadapi hari itu?
Masihkah ingat dahulu
Duka sama pernah dirasa?

Saat itu kau berjaya mengharungi
Walaupun ribuan luka terhiris
Setelah perjuangan itu kau masih berdiri
Hinggalah ke saat ini

Yakin padaku! Ini dalil cinta Tuhan kepadamu
Kerana luar biasa martabatmu
Lihatlah bagaimana bicara-Nya
Ini agar kau belajar cintai-Nya

Biar tidak terkira
Rungutan batinmu itu
Namun masih tidak terkira
Belas kasih-Nya untukmu

Kadang mudah menuding jari pada yang lain
Agar kau keluar dari bebanan itu
Dan sekali lagi beban itu tak beralih
Hingga menghantuimu lagi

Yakin padaku!
Kau kan lelah mengejar sangkaan manusia
Tak tergapai hasrat setiap mereka
Tapi selangkah kau mengejar cinta-Nya
Seribu langkah kau kan didekati-Nya

Tak salah mengenang kisah silam
Saat jatuh bangunmu dulu
Kadang atur takdir-Nya sukar dibaca
Hingga wujud dirimu jua dalil cinta-Nya

Yakin padaku!
Ini dalil cinta tuhan kepadamu
Kerana luar biasa martabatmu
Lihatlah bagaimana bicara-Nya ini
Agar kau belajar cintai-Nya

Yakin padaku!
Kau kan lelah mengejar sangkaan manusia
Tak tergapai hasrat setiap mereka
Tapi selangkah kau mengejar cinta-Nya
Seribu langkah kau kan didekati-Nya

 

 

'' Lagu ini umpama harapan, buat yang tenggelam dalam ujian, buat yang terperangkap dalam kegelapan. Tapi ingatlah, jika ingin menginginkan perlindungan - lindungi lah diri menggunakan nama tuhan; Allah ''

  

This is important. 

In order to protect yourself from shaytaan.

the only thing you need to do is:

seek protection from Allah to be protected from shaytaan. 

How much you provide backup plan - it won't work if you did not seek in a way Allah wanted you to seek help from him. You forget, those bad things, are from shaytaan & you yourself. remember the verse ''good come from Allah, bad from yourself'' thus seek help. remember, Allah never put doubt - buy shaytaan. 

so whenever you having the bad phase, or when you don't even understand yourself - please, the only way to get it out - by seek protection from Allah. (auzubillahiminasyaitannirojim) if it more strong - the more medicine needed is ayatul kursi. please, whenever you want to think about Allah - please seek protection first. 

You used to have phase, everything seems weird and you can't think soundly - but, i write up here for you to remember. when you constant taawauz, your rationality and logic come back again and seems much more clear. 

The lesson of all things happened throughout the month: -

1) Seek protection from Allah from shaytaan and your own hawa nafs mungkar. (Allahummaini auzubika min munkaratil akhlak liwal akmal li wal ahwak or allahuma ati nafsi -) 

2) The other lesson is, never judge people. Remember the video you watch from Dr Maza, the reason why someone not in peace because they did not in peace with themselves - they have takkabur, hasad, ujub or riak. So ask yourself, which one you are. When you acknowledge, you will be in much better state. I am/used (still have bits of) takabbur - i used to think, i am much better than others, and look down upon them, without i do not said in my heart, but in inside, we all know. so whenever you start to feel like that - you seek protection from Allah from that feeling - because Allah really hate takabbur and hasad (+riak and ujub) because in origin, we are nothing - but Allah gives everything. So we do not have anything to be proud of. even with our amal - because if Allah did not allow, nothing can be done. 

3) It is important to start your day with doa maksur - or at least start with ya hayyuya qoyyum birahmatika astaghes aslilihli syakni kullahu walatakilni ila nafsi thorfataiinin. because without you realizing it, when you start with doa maksur - many good deeds are accompanying you, meanwhile when you start without it, you seems as if you forget yourself and your deeds to be brought to akhirah. So that is how important it is. Remember when you back to hometown, if you did not start with other doa maksur - even subhanalliliwabihamdih and astsghfirullah 100x - seems very heavy... so on the other part of lesson, before this, the deeds you able to utter, that solely come from the strength Allah gives you. because in split of second you are unable to keep up with it. so, you are nothing unless Allah help you to increase your level - it is never from yourself.  

on side note, i really wanted to thanks dear kak shazrina azman because you (are the asbab) for Allah to make me clear on the things that i never think about before. there are really huge reason (which i do not know why) Allah guided my heart to seek help from you. I think your stern upon the doubt issues which really enlighten me, and opened up my eyes really well. 

Above all, thanks Allah for guiding me all the way (you sent me many reminders and good inclination) and keep me steadfast in this path. Without you, I am nothing and in bad state but with you i am in good state in whichever you wanted me to be :)

wallahutaalaálam.

 welcome back readers. 

'' Kau pusinglah tang mana pun, bukti Allah itu wujud memang dh jelas. Bukti kekuasaanya sangatlah jelas dan teliti bagi yang berfikir dan yang tidak membutakan mata. Maka, itu tanggungjawab untuk kau galas dan mengamalkan apa yang kau beriman.''

Alhamdulillah, I gained back - Allah bagi pinjam something that Allah own and will forever own. 

Agungnya Allah, kau pusing lah tang mana, dia sentiasa ada. Bukti kekuasannya sentiasa ada disisi.
Tak percaya? Tengok laptop ni. Siapa yang menciptakan elektrik? Siapa yang menciptakan akal yang berbeza? Siapa yang menjadikan sesuatu lebih baik dari yang satu - secara zahir? Itu kerana Allah membenarkan. 

Tanya diri, betapa banyak ujian yang yang kau keluar dengan bersabar dan berdoa padanya. 

Semalam, anak saudaraku demam. Maka aku pasangkan doa nabi yunus dan doa nabi zakaria - Alhamdulillah hari ini sudah sembuh. Semua dengan izin Allah. Kepercayaan dan pengharapan yang tinggi pasti tidak sia-sia. Jika Allah masih tidak mengizinkan pasti hari ini masih demam dan tidak bermaya. Tapi kerana keizinan Allah dan kepercayaan ibunya terhadap Allah untuk menyembuhkan anaknya - Bi iznillah - Allah izinkan. 

Dalam hidup ini, pergantungan kita hanya ada pada satu - iaitu Allah. Kita tak ada dan tak layak langsung untuk bergantung pada ciptaannya. Kerana apa? Janjinya - semua makhluk itu akan mati - maka kebergantungan kita pun tidak akan kekal dan salah bergantung pada selainnya. Allah ingatkan dalam Al quran - cukuplah Allah untukku. Maka kembali pada Allah. 

I wish I can talk how Allah fulfill all my duá - but I am not sure whether it will be good for me and others. But what I can simply mention here, most of my dua being fulfilled by Allah. And to be remembered, sometimes you duá because you think that is the best for you. Meanwhile Allah is all know what inside your heart and what you wished for and what is the best for you.

Thus, believe. Sometimes, even it is not the exact, it is actually the duá you have been praying without you realize. Because without it, maybe you are not in the best state like you currently are. 

Wallahutaalaa'lam.

Assalamualaikum Readers. 

Just like previous days, and previous2 test, we overcome it. Alhamdulillah. 

Alhamdulillah for the blessings that we can never count and impossible for us to count.  

Today, so many things opened up my eyes. 

I got to realize one things, that despite how many back up plan you were planned ahead for ahead of time,

if Allah said kun fayakun. Then it happens. 

How i cannot overturn the table but the glory belong to Allah, he did turn the table. 

How i can only see lights when he allow it, and how i still cannot going out, when he did not allow it yet - so the key is to be sabr, prayer (yes. you can actually ask to going out from the test but must be accompanied with sabr and never sloppy) and one other important is through constant istigfar.

From this test, it realized me one things, how arrogant I am, because there are times I judge his other slaves whereas he knew who he loved the most and how merciful he is towards his slave. 

 Again, I can never count how iman-full i am, what i can do is keep steadfast and let Allah count everything and deal with everything. 

just remember one thing - Allah is true, Allah is one and Allah is the real protector. you can never find any flaw in the quran. And remember on today, it was not a coicindence that Allah made you found a verse about how to keep steadfast from doubt (ragu2) is through seeing the sign in yourself (body), when you already experienced or thought beforehand. it is like, yes indeed. I allow you to think like that, because i already said in the Quran. the thought; i allow it. so, from this sign, it should increase your iman.  

Look at your fingertips - Allah did says in quran, it was different for everyperson. Allah did said - moon will be like crossant - which is true. The moon was going round through earth - which is true. Allah the signs that were stated in the Holy Quran are true and never ever have flaws.

Remember just how sun never wrong going out at wrong time - it is not the world revolves itself, it is Allah allows it. And just how in life we overcome trials, it is not because by time it will end, but because Allah allows it. 

Look at your body - think! in your own body there are organism that exist and live which you are not the owner. Who do the job for the body, to keep it balance. it is organism that exist and it with lives, red blood cell do die - bacteria do die - who do you think keep it alive and let it die? you? For sure not? By itself? For sure not - just how people jumped but still cannot die - it proven you do not belong to yourself. So who? Allah. Because Allah do mention - the lives and the death all belong to Allah (from dua by prophet SAW)

Just remember about sahabah. Do you think all the effort they did is for no purpose? For sure no. That is because the believe the live after death and how small the world is. That is why the seek their best to compile Quran and hadith - for the sake of Allah. And Allah do promise that Al quran will be protected until the end of time - and even after 1400+ years - it is protected. And all of these are sign, if you are thinking. 

How can something you see and you can feel, you can read exist from nothing? For sure everything come from a root and source. Same like religion and the verse of Allah and hadith. It come from the true source - creator and his messenger. 

I keep writing, so that by doing this - my iman will increase and i can attain the sweetness of iman. 

Wallahutaalaálam. 

How my journey began?

I was so lost into lust of dunya. I spent my time for things that bring kemurkaan of Allah. 

I constantly come and back of changing, but none really stick for long time because I just seek Allah for short relief. (Astagfirullahalazim) Whenever I obtained what I wanted, I tend to forget all the blessings Allah gave me. I seek again the lust of dunya.

It going back and forth just like the swing. And how true is Al quran, Allah do state that some are only looking Allah for when hardship struck them (just like the old me....) ''Apabila manusia ditimpa kesusahan, dia berdoa kepada Allah, memohon bantuan dan bertaubat kepadanya, (namun) apabila dihilangkan dari mereka kesusahan tersebut, dia lupa apa yang pernah diucapkan dalam doa mereka sebelum itu.” (al-Zumar:8)

But one thing that I remember the most on how I changed my perspective of life... 

I still remember the night of nisfu sha'ban - where it stated doa is makbul. I was still doing my sins, but then there is inside me feel bad as that time is holy - it wasn't that strong, it just a glimpse because i feel as a loser if i was not praying and ask for a change. 

So, without thinking too much and left all the things that I did, I pray. I pray. I ask for forgiveness. I pray that Allah really open my heart to stop doing all the sins that I know he hate  and he prohibited. How bad i am that time, i do realize that my heart is so full of blacked dots that it seems hard for light to enter. I did pray just for the sake of pray. I am not sure because common (uruf) or at least there is bit of iman. but the prayer did not bring that much prevention of haram things as I do not that ikhlas and asal settle. 

But how amazing that night, I did cry. I cry even I have no intention to cry. I feel bad and I do said specific doa, and how Allah really granted the doa.

looking back this thing, I remembered the hadith that prophet said;
''Dari Abu Dzar, Rasulullah bersabda: Jangan sekali-kali kalian menganggap remeh suatu kebajikan meskipun hanya berupa keceriaan wajah ketika bertemu dengan kawanmu” HR Muslim No 4760'' How I expect nothing from that solat, but Masha Allah, Allah led me to the beautiful path. A really beautiful one.

I wish to stop all the sins and I wish that Allah make me someone much better than I am when I was form 3 - because that time, I really think it was at my best state. He did. I really think I am improving so much better than I am when form 3 (but I did not obtain it during that phase - but later i obtained it, subhanallah)

So during that time, i start to see the light Islam. However, it was temporary and there is up and down. I was tested into the temptation of K-POP. The life seems happy as I was accompanied with good songs etc, but how I was blinded with temporary satisfaction. I fall sick. A sickness that make me hate myself. I was always anxious and it was so hard to sleep. wayy to hard. I can only get 4hours of sleep but mostly because I engage myself with excessive K-POP.

 I do not know how to say, but the journey Allah led me is one by one. When i was engage with K-POP i did stop the sins. But sometimes, I at same time I just exceeded the boundary as slave of Allah. I prioritize human over the creator. How i still not into that deep into ihsan - realize the existence of Allah in whatever you doing.  

So when I start looking for job, I was seeking into 1 this particular job and did excel into the interview, and how i wished i can get it. But subhanallah, his plan are way greater that mine. way - way greater.
(the purpose of i am writing this so that I can be conscious of his nikmat to me)

i was given option of two. but I still remember the word of my sister - istikarah lah. 

despite all of us seems like, ya Allah your dream job is in front of you. Just be patient and proceed with it. But, i tried to give a chance for istikarah - where at point of time, i thought it will bring not that much benefit. But i was mistaken! From that istikarah (i really think i did wholeheartedly which there is no biased - whichever Allah think the best, then lead me - initially i have inclination on my dream job) Then long short, there are trials (simple - but he made me feels heavy cause he knew the best) Then I chose the current job. 

But wait a minute, who said after istikarah everything is the best - it did, but not on the spot! there are trials of course - to bring you closer to Allah, then everything good come to you. It really is!

How islam is true, the istikarah is something that bring you closer to Allah - and subhanallah it did! 

My current job at my first department was abundant trial - which i cried every single day (mostly) everything make me anxious - then from that struggle - I seek motivational video, ceramah so that something can comfort me. I was introduced to Dr Maza. Which I really hope we can meet one day. I still remember his video - Tahajjud ubat segala kesarabutan.  

So without expect that much, I just like, why don't try. Subhanallah. It did cure many of my hardships. 

Along the journey I was tested with so many, but more like inner trials - but i always wanted to remind myself and to others, just how big the test - now Allah already uplifted it and he will uplifted it in the future too - that is his promise in surah Al insyirah & Ar-Rad. 

I will explain much details on the problem occured and how things was switch table in instant :)
''Then which favour of your Lord would you deny?''

Wallahutaalam - the good from Allah the bad is from me (even this verse Allah put in front of me, when I asked myself when listened to ceramah, who said that phrase - Allah send to words to me from ig post few days after- like answering my curiousty - so whenver you have doubt, remember Allah answered every single your prayer - cepat or lambat, because he is the most perfect and most capable)

 Assalamualaikum readers.

The purpose of my write up in the blog is meant for me to read when 

i am having the complexity days which Allah knows the best. 

The write up is for me to keep up with all the blessings that Allah gave me

how he forgave me, how he changed me from bad to good, from less valuable to valuable one. 

how he changed my perspective of life, how he granted most of my duá which he knows the best. 

 

Whenever the days hit, i start to wonder, why this happening?

i do have faith but why? but, i want me to remind myself 

Do remember just how much you going through the phase, you already overcome it various of times. 

So many times and you already obtain a high degree level of confidence. 

But whenever it hits, just remind it just a test from Allah. Allah creates all of us.
He exist. The most evidence is Al quran al kareem.

Whenever you lost hope, just remember that Allah state “Patutkah manusia menyangka bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan dengan hanya berkata: ‘Kami beriman, sedang mereka tidak diuji (dengan sesuatu cubaan)? Dan demi sesungguhnya, Kami menguji orang yang terdahulu daripada mereka, maka (dengan ujian yang demikian), nyata apa yang diketahui Allah orang yang sebenar-benarnya beriman dan nyata pula apa yang diketahui-Nya orang yang berdusta.’” (Surah al-Ankabut, ayat 2-3)

 So at this phase, the only thing you can do is going forward. Just remember the text you read 

from Mufti Menk, which there will be days you cannot even differentiate things and things seems 

so contrary (which i think he did experience the same things as me) and he stated just move forward,

we are on the right path - dan disini lah nyata mana2 beriman. Kerana dia masih teguh di agama. 

Just also remember, Rasulullah sangat selalu baca, Ya Muqollibal Qulub, Tsabit Qolbi Ala dinik. 

yang mana nabi kata, '''
 

'Yes. Indeed, the hearts are between two Fingers of Allah's Fingers, He changes them as He wills.'"

 And remember Allah tells you a verse, Para Nabi adalah paling yang diuji dikalangan kamu. Maka keimanan dan ketakutan juga. Maka, sentiasa ingatkan diri, don't worry. Even dalam hadith cakap, Allah changes them as he wills. So this is my part of test.

Jangan lupa bukti2 yang Allah dah tunjuk depan mata, ia ajaib kerana kita duduk dengan maha ajaib. 

To count how much iman you have it is impossible, Allah knows the best. But, if you did certain things 

because you are afraid of Allah and want to keep istiqomah, then that is iman. 

We as muslim are bound to beriman with perkara ghaib. Just how life potrayed in quran are all true - excactly no keraguan, thus no keraguan at all for future to come - azab yang diceritakan, dan keindahan yang bakal diperoleh apabila tetap teguh pada agama. 

 I do not remeber how i overcome, but one things that i remember

1) Just yakin Allah akan keluarkan kita dan dia akan kurniakan keyakinan

2) Membaca ayat al quran dan hadith utk improve the reasoning - hanya dengan mengenal maka boleh tingkatkan keyakinan - dan Al quran memang tak ada keraguan kerana ia tidak mungkin ditulis oleh makhluk, bahasanya puitis, isinya hikmah dan fakta - kerana dicipta oleh Maha Agung. ingat bukti2 yang buat kau amaze, how dalam quran ada salji sedang nabi dduk padang pasir, how Allah mention dkt injil ad Nabi muhammad, dan mmg dkt bibble ad stated nama nabi muhammad, how hadith2 juga benar. Subhanallah. 

3) Just how you know nothing exist out of nothing, begitula juga quran & hadith. Quran mmg dibaca oleh nabi kepada sahabat2. Tiada keraguan. Allah juga ckp nabi punya hafalan baik. apa disampai tak kurang malah lebih baik. Jadi tak mungkin benda tiba2 ada. Maka ada penyampainya. Hadith sahih dan dhoif ada beza kerana mmg ad perawi yang benar dan kurang hafalan / tak benar - maka hadith juga benar. 

It always hard when the phase come, but put trust and moving forward.
 

PALING PENTING YAKIN ALLAH IZINKAN INI BERLAKU & ALLAH AKAN KELUARKAN DARI FASA INI :)