Assalamualaikum readers.

The purpose of my write up in the blog is meant for me to read when 

i am having the complexity days which Allah knows the best. 

The write up is for me to keep up with all the blessings that Allah gave me

how he forgave me, how he changed me from bad to good, from less valuable to valuable one. 

how he changed my perspective of life, how he granted most of my duá which he knows the best. 

 

Whenever the days hit, i start to wonder, why this happening?

i do have faith but why? but, i want me to remind myself 

Do remember just how much you going through the phase, you already overcome it various of times. 

So many times and you already obtain a high degree level of confidence. 

But whenever it hits, just remind it just a test from Allah. Allah creates all of us.
He exist. The most evidence is Al quran al kareem.

Whenever you lost hope, just remember that Allah state “Patutkah manusia menyangka bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan dengan hanya berkata: ‘Kami beriman, sedang mereka tidak diuji (dengan sesuatu cubaan)? Dan demi sesungguhnya, Kami menguji orang yang terdahulu daripada mereka, maka (dengan ujian yang demikian), nyata apa yang diketahui Allah orang yang sebenar-benarnya beriman dan nyata pula apa yang diketahui-Nya orang yang berdusta.’” (Surah al-Ankabut, ayat 2-3)

 So at this phase, the only thing you can do is going forward. Just remember the text you read 

from Mufti Menk, which there will be days you cannot even differentiate things and things seems 

so contrary (which i think he did experience the same things as me) and he stated just move forward,

we are on the right path - dan disini lah nyata mana2 beriman. Kerana dia masih teguh di agama. 

Just also remember, Rasulullah sangat selalu baca, Ya Muqollibal Qulub, Tsabit Qolbi Ala dinik. 

yang mana nabi kata, '''
 

'Yes. Indeed, the hearts are between two Fingers of Allah's Fingers, He changes them as He wills.'"

 And remember Allah tells you a verse, Para Nabi adalah paling yang diuji dikalangan kamu. Maka keimanan dan ketakutan juga. Maka, sentiasa ingatkan diri, don't worry. Even dalam hadith cakap, Allah changes them as he wills. So this is my part of test.

Jangan lupa bukti2 yang Allah dah tunjuk depan mata, ia ajaib kerana kita duduk dengan maha ajaib. 

To count how much iman you have it is impossible, Allah knows the best. But, if you did certain things 

because you are afraid of Allah and want to keep istiqomah, then that is iman. 

We as muslim are bound to beriman with perkara ghaib. Just how life potrayed in quran are all true - excactly no keraguan, thus no keraguan at all for future to come - azab yang diceritakan, dan keindahan yang bakal diperoleh apabila tetap teguh pada agama. 

 I do not remeber how i overcome, but one things that i remember

1) Just yakin Allah akan keluarkan kita dan dia akan kurniakan keyakinan

2) Membaca ayat al quran dan hadith utk improve the reasoning - hanya dengan mengenal maka boleh tingkatkan keyakinan - dan Al quran memang tak ada keraguan kerana ia tidak mungkin ditulis oleh makhluk, bahasanya puitis, isinya hikmah dan fakta - kerana dicipta oleh Maha Agung. ingat bukti2 yang buat kau amaze, how dalam quran ada salji sedang nabi dduk padang pasir, how Allah mention dkt injil ad Nabi muhammad, dan mmg dkt bibble ad stated nama nabi muhammad, how hadith2 juga benar. Subhanallah. 

3) Just how you know nothing exist out of nothing, begitula juga quran & hadith. Quran mmg dibaca oleh nabi kepada sahabat2. Tiada keraguan. Allah juga ckp nabi punya hafalan baik. apa disampai tak kurang malah lebih baik. Jadi tak mungkin benda tiba2 ada. Maka ada penyampainya. Hadith sahih dan dhoif ada beza kerana mmg ad perawi yang benar dan kurang hafalan / tak benar - maka hadith juga benar. 

It always hard when the phase come, but put trust and moving forward.
 

PALING PENTING YAKIN ALLAH IZINKAN INI BERLAKU & ALLAH AKAN KELUARKAN DARI FASA INI :)